Monday, April 4, 2011 7:45 PM
I did not expect myself to blog this evening with lots of unbearable happenings that happened within 8 to 5pm today. I was in total despair while travelling home today. It was a different kind of sadness relative to the previous issue happened to me in camp. I just could not believe things could happened and turn out to be a negative externality to me, I would say.
I knew it. The first thing in the morning I had a prediction that today will be a bad day. I woke up 10minutes earlier than usual and I still miss the bus. I need to run for the bus 103 when I reach Serangoon. Well, that's a trivial matter as I reach camp on time.
Did first escorting duty. Something happened which I don't think I can type it out. I am not too sure why its like that but I don't think its my fault. Small matter. Can be fixed.
The intensity of the bad experiences increases as time passes. Look, I need to go through and fro to food to the regulars when actually it was already with them. He blamed me for not telling him that its in the back of the vehicle. I take that.
Next, shitty job for us to do ain't enjoyable. Perspire and sticky is what i get. Dirty and dusty is the place I go.
When I am back from there, I am so so devastated. My best prowling buddy is going to ASD. Just because someone quarrelled with Gabriel. And that someone, who is very hard up on it, literally make Gabriel come down to Sleetar for duty, giving his own stand. He even brainwashed the superiors about this.
Now, i am left with no one of my batch to talk to, except for Daniel. Its really sucky to see most of them going there. I am left alone doing duty here. I fear the insecurity.
Next up, a very last minute information that my IPPT is coming soon. Its so sudden that I cannot have enough time to train.
The worst of the worst, the actual GOOD FRIDAY off day became a dismount day. And I will have to do a Saturday duty. WTF!!!
I have talked to the SGT and he will settle with it tmr. I rather have 2 days Standby. Its not as though there is not enough duty personnel. I am going to fight for it, really. I don't wanna do duty on my Dad's Birthday!
Why is it like that. If Gabriel did not do that nonsense, he wouldn't be mad about this and everything remains unchanged.
No more Neson, unknown schedule for Good Friday week, unkown results for IPPT. Within 24hours, from a hopeful mood to a depressing mood. Sigh.
This picture was taken 1 month plus ago. Was super sad that day. Look at the Doraemon, it is crying for me.
That Feng Shui in that camp is getting bad. Bad luck strikes endlessly. I think I should bare in mind that there wouldn't be a period when there is peace and enjoyment, until someone leaves.
I am tired and sad. Help me.........
Labels: Devastated
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 8:23 PM
Today is a mentally and physically tiring day. Didn't really have the time to rest. In addition, that person is going crazy again. Sitting at that place, staring at the China man doing things ain't good. Its so boring and worse is, that place is badly ventilated. Wearing the LBV aggravate the feeling. Lack of manpower today is seriously bad. Have to do in total of 5 hours of that uncomfortable duty. Luckily there are some rest in between. However, the mentally tiring part is of course the routine stuff that I post. That person is here to 'disturb' me again. Its so nonsense man. I wasn't doing anything and I was so called chased out. I was having lunch there and he said that I stink the whole room. WTF! Everyone is eating at that place. Sometimes, facing him is not a good thing. I am not afraid to face him but I am just afraid that I spoiled his mood. I seemed to be a pain in his ass. Really. I think I am kinda fined blacklisted by him. What to do?The most unbearable part is that, he actually told the new spec who came in on Monday that I am a person who is untrustable. Tell him to give me MORE weekends duty. Basically, he wants the new spec to HATE me like how he does. I mean what is this? Is really unfair to me. I felt really bad hearing this. Its really crossing the border. All these little things I am just going to accumulate. I will endure and if this persist, there goes and I will just go all the way.This friday I will have to go to some event, which falls on my dismount. I am on duty this Saturday. Basically its a sign of being 'bullied'! I really regret extracting my wisdom teeth at that period. I should have done it when new birds are here. This kind of torturing from him is worst than any other forms. Try it and you will know.Enough is enough. But he seems to be playing happily with his authority. He doesn't have any ethics in him when he is in a foul mood. This is bad.Everytime when I am home, I feel less pessimistic. Whenever I am in camp, the feeling is always bad. How, I need some cousellor seriously. Sigh.I never encounter this type of problems before till the extend couselling is needed. Thanks man. Thanks for that. You will be a damn good person in life. Do more of this little things behind me and you will go far. I wish you the very best when you leave!Labels: Devastated
