Name: Stanley Ho Tean Yang
School: Clementi Town Primary school(97-00), Clementi Primary School(01-02), Queensway Secondary School(03-07), Serangoon Junior College(08-09)
Just another normal guy out there with some amibitions. Chemistry is his all time favourite subject. Shy at the start but is sincere in making friends after some time. Well, check out my entries to know more =)
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Sunday, April 25, 2010 10:49 AM
THEME FOR 2010 SRJC COLLEGE DAY: DESTINATION - IMAGINATION!
(Please start reading from the word START as i have probs with blogger in the orientation of photos!) Pardon me for that!)
(CONTINUE)Prize given by SRJC for my A level results. To me, this is the BEST prize i have ever get in my 19 years of life for good academic results. Will frame is up! LOVE IT lots!!!!
Saw Mrs Ting and talked to her a bit. She is still the same old Mrs Ting that i know. All i have to say is a BIG THANK YOU to her. She has changed my life in one way or another. Its because of her style of teaching that results in an A for Economics. Thanks so much. I guess she is the teacher that i will deeply remember!
Walked around school compound and seriously, it feels so good to be in school. The feeling couldn't be described when u know u are having tough times in NS but were in your own school for that few hours of tour. Its just awesome.
This fountain is opened last year during our graduation day. I made a wish that i wanna do well for A levels. It works. I did well. In fact, majority of the SRJCians did better than expected. Keep flowing!
The new LT5. Not that bad. I see the changes in this LT. Its really like a performing Arts Theatre. Its a waste i can't watch the concert as i have something on at night. This LT will stay with me!
Uncle Henry congratulated me for winning the prize as he sees me, yoke and Marcus walking passed him. I am sure he did a part for my results too, being efficient in giving us notes that were essential for exams. Prices charged are reasonable too. Thanks a lot UNCLE HENRY!
This achievement has never been in my mind before, unlike when i was in sec 5 i wanted to be in the distinction club and i did it! I didn't dare to dream and imagine that i will win a prize in JC, especially 2 H2 Distinction award. It is then i knew that being a SRJCian, IMAGINATION, CHARACTER and VALUES are qualities being imparted to us unknowingly.
I know i definitely possesses the 3 words. SRJC has moulded me into a person whom i have never thought to be. I dare to dream big, aspire and imagine. All thanks to SRJC! SRJC will forever be in my heart!
I wanna say something. I just felt its a little unfair for those who scored 80 points and above for A's but didn't get a prize. Those should be recognised for that too.
In conclusion, SRJC will always be in my mind and i hope the school will prosper for grow big. I NEVER regret going in SRJC with a very conducive environment to study in, making cool friends and of course, the always-be-there-teachers that never fails to give us extra consultation. Their hard work deserves an ovation! Hope i will have the time to visit them during teachers day!
Till then. NS life in Week 7, there are nothing much to say. Its another week in NS i guess. Just that i have a status(attn B) from Wed to Fri as i vomitted on Wednesday after breakfast. Perhaps its due to the excessive wind in my stomach. 3 Route Marches this week but i only did 1. Next one will be 6km already. Jia You to me for BMT phase this Week 8. Life will be tough from now. Be back on Labour Day!(END)
(START)April 24 is SRJC's 21st College Day. I was elated to receive the letter by SRJC in late March, revealing that i was a prize winner for 2 H2 Distinction. I am so looking forward for that day to arrive.
It was raining when i reach school. Luckily i was in a cab when i go to school. I was late for 10mins. I went into LT4 and saw all the prize winners. I was searching for anyone that i know but to no avail. Am I alone again?
After marking attendance, i saw down alone. Suddenly, Pierre Jonathan Edmund of 2S24 came and sat beside me. I was shocked to see him there. Well, we hit it off with lots of things to say. I am glad that he is there.
Sitting in LT4 to wait for others made me reminisce those times where i had my H1 Maths lecture. It has been a while, I know.
Sorry for the blur vision. My bro is using my HP to take photos. Haha. I received my prize proudly and were quite happy with the prize given by SRJC.
Throughout the whole College Day, i was paying attention to the speaker's speech, taking down any points that is notewothy to take note of, ranging from life experiences to character development. At some point in time, i am thinking of past nice experiences that happened in SRJC this 2 years. Watery eyes were felt by me and my "hair stands" everytime i see pictures or videos that were shown to us. Probably i am missing those days and currently NS life is just disrupting my life to some extent. With a temperamental character, its inevitable to feel that way i guess. College Day ends off with a speech by Valedictorian Al-Olympia. Her words generated a sense of rootedness to SRJC. She was superb yesterday with those words that are filled with feelings.
Today is Sunday, a day to spend with my family members. Its actually a beautiful day but i felt controlled. I always feel controlled every Sunday as i will have to book in in the evening. I will miss civilian world definitely. I miss listening to music when i am in camp. No mp3 is allowed for my coy. But well nothing to complain as overall, i think my coy is seriously fair. Another 5 days of endurance this week and tmr is the technical handling test. I seriously hope i wouldn't screw up the whole thing and do it slowly and steadily. Oh, i realise that most of my platoon mates love to stand in front of the mirror to look at themselves. I am one of them. I guess they wanna see how much changes they have since day one of NS. Haha. For me, i think my body is slightly tougher. Haha Yesterday, its just too short. Went shopping with my cousin to buy birthday gift for my dad. Next meet up with my cousin at night and that's all. The day ended so quickly like every other Saturdays. Anyway, i am yet to catch a movie since enlistment day. I have heard myself saying that i wanna watch a movie that weekend but i didn't do it every weekend. Sigh. Well, 1 fine day i guess.. Feeling kinda numb now. Book in book out routine is gradually making me getting use to it. Just praying hard that everything will go on smoothly in the week ahead. Going to SRJC next Saturday to receive prize for my A level results. Finally can go to my JC to visit teachers. I seriously miss SRJC in most aspect, especially school life. Ok, shall end of my entry here. Be back for more updates(if any) for the upcoming week 7. 10 more weeks to go and i am done! It will be fast right? Haha Going out to celebrate Dad's birthday later. Tonight is STAR AWARDS 2010, will miss that anual show, sigh. Nvm.Take care people. Weather is bad. Drink more water. Bye
Saturday, April 17, 2010 10:19 AM
THE LOST STANLEY
I woke up with a tired mind, forcing myself to think about the steps to strip and assemble rifle. The impacted me is still feeling slightly lost in confidence. I wonder when will i regain my confidence back.... In actual fact, i am someone who lacks confidence. Someone who lacks confidence in life will definitely face obstacles in life in various facets. Regrettably, i faced that on thursday this week. Apart from that, week 6 seems to pass in a blink. I was on status on Monday as i have just recovered from fever and cough. Tuesday was Route March again with FBO. 4km march seems so tough for me as Platoon 3 has only 32 fighting fit on that day. Many of my platoon mates fell sick this week with many attn c and attn b. Sigh. Our morale wasn't there at night but i would say, we did well overall. After that the day went on smoothly with manageable PT. Wednesday was the toughest of all with lots of PT. However, it was again manageable and ok to me. Here comes Thursday. On Thursday, it was a day that the company will be taught to handle the rifle. We call it Technical Handling. The first half of the day before lunch, i was pretty ok with the stripping and assembling of the rifle. It seems difficult but through practice, its easy and manageable. I know that day will be ok and FUN as i have got to learn new things that day. Having that same mindset, i was ready for the next lesson. This lesson is slighly tougher than the first part. Its physically more tiring learning those movement. Things went on smootlhy with practice after practice. I partner one of my bunk mates and everything was right, i promise.
Next up, my section commander wanted to give a mock test to everyone. When it was my turn, things didn't went well. I made a few mistakes initially and i CONTINUE to make mistakes. With the section commanders' shouting and hurting words, my morale dropped drastically. When it was on "double feeding", i can't cock the weapon at all. I was pumped for that! The consistent shouting by him made me lost confidence for myself TOTALLY! Everything i do seems to be WRONG! I asked for permission to practice on my own and i was granted. I moved out of the training area to the back. I took many deep breathes. Naturally, tears rolled down my cheeks together with all the sweat. I tried to control myself but i just couldn't. I was thankful that that partner came to console me. I was left alone then.
I sat down after calming myself down and tried all the steps again and i did it! I seriously did all the steps correctly on my own. What i can conclude is i need to calm down without any HARSH words on me that will affect my morale! I knew that i have lost myself during the first attempt! After deep analysis and calming myself down, I went to him for the mock test one more time. I did everything correctly this time round and was relieved. What I heard from him was " Stanley, please have some confidence in yourself can or not?" I went off answering "yes sgt"
I was really lucky to have platoon mates consoling me that night. Hopfully they will be those pillars throughout the BMT!
After much thoughts, i dun blame my section commander. I feel that he wants the best out of me. He wants everyone in his section to be the best! That's why he wants me to have more confidence. Furthermore, i am dealing with a RIFLE. It's life threatening so to speak. Hence, everything must be done correctly and instruction MUST be followed in order to prevent mishaps from happening. He is doing his job i guess. I blame myself for that as I am the few who gave such problems to him in dealing with serious things. I just cannot get over what happened that day! I need some time to cool down and forget about it(and i will!)
Ok, thats about it this week. That thing really impacted me to the max but i learn a lot from the incident. Went to Singapore Discovery Centre yesterday for some learning journey and it was ok. Booked out early from there and met up with my friends after that. I was damn shag! Here i am now. I will be recapping the steps again in my mind to prevent unfavourable incident to happen on Monday as there will be a test. Right now i just wanna spend the day happily! Haha. Ok, be back again! =) (Anyway books to recommend to increase self confidence?)
This is the song that i am currently loving it lots. She is one of my favourite singer from Singapore. Always love her songs and never disappoint me with her powerful vocal. Although its Chinese song, please do listen to it. Its not that bad!
CHEE NA PIANG Stanley, some may say. I dun care as this is my preference. I do like English songs too but to a lesser extent. So well, back to update next week soon =)
Holla. Just finish packing things to bring in to army not long ago. This week we are allowed to bring in 3 types of food, namely biscuits, chocolate and sweets. Although this privilege seems negligible, its a privilege. Better to reap it before its gone. Going for Qing Ming again later to pray my grandparents(mum's side). Feeling better today but the phleagm is still stuck at my throat. Need to drink lots of water. Got to reach Pasir Ris interchange at 8.40pm today(shiok), hence not so rush for me. This weekend seriously NO LIFE! Actually i planned to catch a movie this weekend but due to illness, i can't go for it. Next week i guess! Right now, i am feeling numb. In a sense that book in and book out every weekend is like a routine already. I seriously think that's a pleasant signal for me as it indicates that i am getting use to it. I hope in future, i dun even have to mention the emotions of it. Haha Still on medication and tmr i will be on attn B. I will take that opportunity to eradicate the monday blues in me. Be back next week for my MOVIE! I am deprive of it! Take care people. Drink more water. The weather is bad. Chaos =)
Wooo, finally back to blogging. What a tiring week 5 in Pulau Tekong. Rush and rush like a mad dog. Sirs and Sgts are raising their voice at us. However, I have put in my best effort in this week in terms doing things asap and showing a sense of urgency, i promise. On monday, there is this CO parade that requires us to go to Ladang early in the morning. However, there are lots of ppl falling out during the ceremony. It was OK for me. Monday blues seriously sucks. I fell out for the swim as i have flu and i think i am not ready for the swim. Hence, i fall out for it. Back to camp for lunch. But before lunch, we have to stand 5 mins for this heat acclimatisation to train us to stand under hot sun as many had fallen out during the parade. Nothing much on Monday after that. Games only i guess The rest of the days, its quite tiring. Route March with field pack is tough for me, especially on Wed. Tuesday on was really ok. Wed is the day i totally SHAG out. Run after route march and swim after the run. Pack like crazy man. Some more that day CDS is SGT --- who is the "devil" in Quebec Coy. we sat under the hot sun at 2.30 to 3.15. Dehydration man! Sigh. Next up strength training in the afternoon. At night, tekan time. Our bunks are not up to standard, hence push up position for quite some time. Sigh. Although that Sgt seems to be like a "devil" to many, i beg to differ. He reminds me of Mrs Ting Siew Hong. Someone who goes the hard way, ridicule us, scold us, shout at us, very strict on us and someone who has an ultimate motive in mind. To me, I touch my heart and in my mind, he is a good sgt, although i am scared of him once i see him.
Next on IPPT. It was conducted on Thursday. That day was seriously a slack day as they want us to rest more so that we have energy for IPPT. I would like to say the training is seriously effective. With those vigorous training conducted by PTIs, there will definitely be at least some improvement in each station. However, it is not so for Chin up. My shuttle run remains at 9.9 sec, not bad. Sit ups i can do 10 more than the previous IPPT. I did 42 this time. Next, SBJ, 221. I think its quite bad as i did not take advantage of my long legs. I should be able to jump at least 225. Well, i will train harder and reach 234 asap. Sure can! Chin up, needless to say, still stuck at that pathetic 0! I really wanna break that 0 soon man! The feeling while hanging on the chin up bar is sucky. The discrimination that u will get if u can't pull sucks man. When i have tried my best to go up the bar and i can't go up, my mind has a negative thought, which is the inability to pull 1 even after BMT is over. I really dunno why. I think its is due to the my physique. I seriously have weak core muscles, small rib cage and small shoulder. In addition, my lower body is quite heavy. Hence, i can't pull myself up is because of these factors. But 1 think for sure, i will not give up!! After the 4 stations, I am totally out of the mood of IPPT. However, i still have a run to finish it. I felt like falling out but well, sucked thumb and finish it. I told myself to try to be faster than the first timing which is 13.08! When the run starts, i ran at a consistent and comfortable pace. In my mind, all i think of is NO RT! If i am able to pass 2.4, chances in getting RT will be low. In my mind, i thought of my Darlings who is there to support me, especially Yaya who told me that i can make it for that 2.4. Next up, Endurance is weakness leaving the body! In the nutshell, its all those advantages, benefits and encouragements from various that keeps me going. Eventually, my timing is 11.37(estimated). I never run so fast in my life! Seriously! I am elated! VERY! Thanks NS training! I am going to aim for higher next 2.4! I am happy for my section too. Most of them pass their 2.4 run too! I believe my section all can pass 2.4! Its a tiring week! It will get more and more tiring each week. I just hope that i will not kena RT! Kena fever on friday(like again!) Sigh! I had terrible sore throat yesterday evening till the extend i can't even talk! Swallow saliva, its like super super painful! Went to see a doctor and my fever has subsided after a good night sleep! Doctor gave me 1 day MC. I seriously hope i can recover asap so that i can train hard to break most barriers of mind! But not sure whether my weak immune system allows me to do so! Ok, shall stop here! Be back tmr morning! =)
Its Sunday morning, Easter Sunday to be exact. What a lovely time to sleep with a nice and cold weather. And i am blogging at this hour. Reason? Just want to utilise every second being a "civilian" before entering a place where it seems like 'hell' to most.
This week pass in just a blink for me. The reason behind it is because was sent home due to fever and that i got to wake up late and do things that i want at home.
Its very realistic. Things that u would like to do and love to do, the time available is insufficient or too short. Vice versa, when things that u hate to do, there is ample of time and time pass very slowly. Sigh.
5 days, 5 days. How can i endure another 5 days in Week 5 of my BMT life? This 5 days will be like 8 days to me. I bet the training and route march will be INSANE as intensity increases every week! My platoon mates already told me route march with field pack is like hell. I am seriously worried as i think route march is not my forte. sigh
This few days at home resting makes me worried. Why? Cos i am more inclined to think that home is a wonderful place to live that is filled with love that can boost up your mood. Hence, i am worried that i will have severe home sick once i book in to Rocky Hill Camp. Home is everything to me!
Last Sunday, was alone at Vivo city. I sat at my usual spot and had Mac. Deep thoughts went through my mind, thinking about past memories that happened those days. That place seriously brings back lovely memories. I miss them lots.
The changes there were drastic, mainly sentosa. I haven't been to that place for quite some time and hence i am shock to see the fast change. Universal studio especially.
Yeah, this place will be a place where i would love to go when i wanna spend time alone or during period that is hard on me.
Another place that i would love to walk is the bridge that links One Fullerton and Esplanade. I seriously love that place to the max. Walked that bridge yesterday night but wasn't that good as the place was wet. The mood just wasn't there.
But i enjoy the walk. And there goes my Saturday.
Back home with lovely mum just back home from meeting up her friends. Bought JCO. donuts home =) And i had 1 before i take my medicine.
Cough with phlegm currently. I hope it wouldn't affect training this week.
Ok, shall end here. Its April the 4th today. To me, i always think that April is the longest month in a year. Cos there isn't holiday(except good friday). In addition, its a period where things, be it studies or work, is piling up and add stress to individuals. Am i right to say that? True to some i guess.
Ok, i am sucking it up(this phrase is powerful). Bye. Back in 5 days time! Wish myself the very best!
Back to blogging. Few days of resting at home i guess is sufficient to recuperate from my illness. My fever has subsided yesterday morning when i woke up. However, my body feels weak throughout the whole day as i consume the tablet that may cause drowsiness. Hence, the day was spent sleeping and computer throughout the whole Wednesday. Currently, i feel much better but slightly floaty. I guess i "overslept". There is this saying that the more u sleep, the more tired u will get. I think i am experiencing that now. Just dunno why my head is still feeling giddy and floaty. Perhaps the medicine. I have stopped eating the medicine that leads to drowsiness but why am i still feeling weak? I guess is the blood circulation in my body, cos i have just recover. It takes time to recover i guess. Hope it will be better after my afternoon nap later. COS of Quebec called me yesterday to check on my temperature and informed me to ask bunk mates for time to book in on Sunday. However, COS sounds like SIR Eugene. Haha. Yup, oh i utilise this time to call the dentist for appointment for Braces(ask for more info) and also apply for SMU. Thats all for now. Going to have my lunch now and then take my medicine. As usual, sleep after medicine. Hope tonight will be better. Called up bunk mate David yesterday and they are having route march again! OMG! I miss 2 route marches this week! But well those that i miss weren't those that i am weak at except route march. They have swimming lessons and speed training so far. Just need to buck up next week. Heard a good news from my bro that he pass his SOC test. Congrats and i am very happy for him. He did very well! 8.53 mins! =) Tonight all soldiers will be coming back as tmr is a public holiday! Lets hope i will recover completely and enjoy my weekend before next week starts! And that's how I spend my April fools' Day!