Tuesday, February 22, 2011 2:38 PM
It's coming, it's coming. I can feel that the unpleasant days are just around the corner. The down period is gushing my way in no time. I will have to be mentally prepared.
I was actually quite shock to see his reaction. He was not angry at all. He was just a little agitated but did not scold me. I am actually quite thankful and grateful for that. I swear.
However, after much thoughts, this is not the case. How can he be so nice to me when I know that he did talk behind my back when I was not around. He was generous with his words too, trying to demeaning my character and attitude. I have no more pride, I have no more guts, I have no more face to face the people at the place where I have to face for another year. I felt that I have left nothing after coming back from a break that I will have to have it.
I know he will not let the matter rest. Indeed, this morning, the predicted unfair treatment is shown. Some others were not doing things properly but ended up with 2 sentences of mere scolding. While on the other hand, the "bad" guy as deem will have to scolded in front of the others. Well done man!
I know I am the next target. Going for something that can benefit my future health leads to such discrimination. What on earth is this? I have informed in advance to them and this is what I get. They cannot say much but to pin point on whatever mistakes that I make. There are definitely more to come in the near future.
Doing Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday for this week is enough to drain me out. Am doing more prowls so that I can sleep till I book out the next day and that's what I get. Perhaps I have just wake up from sleep and hence forgotten about the position to stand. That does not mean to take the chance to shoot me till I can't have a say. Sigh...
I am terribly in need of a cousellor. Or rather just a person to talk to. This kind of treatment is really horrendous. I just don't understand what is he or they are up to. What are they thinking?
This week will be a long and draggy week. This week may be one of the worst week in this year. No choice, I will just have to pull through it!
Other than that, I know myslf well. I can sare say that I have put in my best effort to do my job well. I tried to push myself and gave in at least 80% of my effort. But all I receive was a cold shoulder, bad impression, bad attitude from them. What is this?
Currently lethargic and feeling sucky. There is a phobia in me right now. I don't know how to face them. When I face them, aall I receive is scolding and nagging that spoils my day. Tell me, save me people! I am so vex!
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