Monday, February 28, 2011 12:00 PM
Sitting in front of the computer, doing something that makes me relax, blogging, is such a bliss. Feeling so much better as compared to staying at the place where pressure is experienced.Hmm, I seriously do not know what to say. Maybe I am getting numb towards that issue. I am sick and tired of thinking of that issue, which makes me burn off lots of brain cells. I am literally tired, both physical and mental. 6 duties within a week is no joke man. Technically I am in that place everyday! Haha. Well, I should not be complaining as its 'fair' to others. Oh, and I have got my Saturday!Yesterday, 2 issues were informed. 1 major and 1 minor. Initially was told to stay back till the issue is solved but luckily was able to go as per normal today. The minor issue may be a major issue in time to come. Sorry, can't mention anything.Anyway, feeling a little better as time passes. Met my darlings less Kenny at NEX on Saturday for a catch up. Enjoyed even though its just that few hours!I just have to endure and endure. Endure trains your patient, leading a better self. I will secure this in me. I promise I will try. Thanks guys.All thanks to people around me to guide me here and there. Without them, I think I can't survive the longest and darkest week. They make me stay positive and get ready for potential unpleasant sights on me. Love Monday dismount days as I can spend time with both of my parents! They seriously give me courage to face it. I love them, wholeheartedly!As for me, its in suspense. Shall update again....Labels: Recovering?
Thursday, February 24, 2011 8:41 PM
I am back with more unhappy things to say, unfortunately. Feeling both physically and mentally tired. I give up totally man. I just want this to stop like asap. Please.
Yesterday, I thought that its improving. I was totally wrong again. He came in the afternoon and I remember opening the gate for him. The same expression was seen everytime he comes in. Went back to rest after that shift.
I was told to do some job that was not supposed to be done by duty personnel. It should be done by those who were on standby. I did not think too much as the GC said that there is not enough manpower. So I step in to do it. I was Ok with it, really.
Felt strange when the GC came a while later. He seemed like sopt checking me, whether did I take the opportunity to slack. However, I still did not think outside the box.
The next thing I know was duty partner told me something. Never have I thought of him doing that to me. Now I know. Its him who instructed the GC to let me do it. Duty partner was nice enough to tell me to beware, he is targetting me.
Emo the rest of the day. I tried ways to cover it up but to no avail. I was quite down all the way till my first duty at 9pm, when I feel so much better talking my duty mate.
I was really appreciative of the GC and G2 to cover all things up, making it totally not obvious that its actually him who instructed me to do it.
Till now, I still could not eradicate the phobia in going back to camp. I am trying to. I did not expect that it turned out to be that painful and torturing. I need to endure, which is what i can ONLY do.
I am praying, praying hard that his mood turns better. I really hope I don't affect him for no ood reason.
Wanna thank Yoke for accompanying me to KBOX today. Need that break severely! It helped me relax a bit. He did tell me some opinion and is a good listener. Grateful for that! Thanks Yoke Hung.
Right now, I just hope for time to pass quickly. This rainy season(not literally raining) for me is kind of a bad omen. Bad bad days are experienced. I need a break. I need to cry it all out and be strong after that.
I hope I really can pull through.........
Labels: Super duper down
Tuesday, February 22, 2011 2:38 PM
It's coming, it's coming. I can feel that the unpleasant days are just around the corner. The down period is gushing my way in no time. I will have to be mentally prepared.
I was actually quite shock to see his reaction. He was not angry at all. He was just a little agitated but did not scold me. I am actually quite thankful and grateful for that. I swear.
However, after much thoughts, this is not the case. How can he be so nice to me when I know that he did talk behind my back when I was not around. He was generous with his words too, trying to demeaning my character and attitude. I have no more pride, I have no more guts, I have no more face to face the people at the place where I have to face for another year. I felt that I have left nothing after coming back from a break that I will have to have it.
I know he will not let the matter rest. Indeed, this morning, the predicted unfair treatment is shown. Some others were not doing things properly but ended up with 2 sentences of mere scolding. While on the other hand, the "bad" guy as deem will have to scolded in front of the others. Well done man!
I know I am the next target. Going for something that can benefit my future health leads to such discrimination. What on earth is this? I have informed in advance to them and this is what I get. They cannot say much but to pin point on whatever mistakes that I make. There are definitely more to come in the near future.
Doing Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday for this week is enough to drain me out. Am doing more prowls so that I can sleep till I book out the next day and that's what I get. Perhaps I have just wake up from sleep and hence forgotten about the position to stand. That does not mean to take the chance to shoot me till I can't have a say. Sigh...
I am terribly in need of a cousellor. Or rather just a person to talk to. This kind of treatment is really horrendous. I just don't understand what is he or they are up to. What are they thinking?
This week will be a long and draggy week. This week may be one of the worst week in this year. No choice, I will just have to pull through it!
Other than that, I know myslf well. I can sare say that I have put in my best effort to do my job well. I tried to push myself and gave in at least 80% of my effort. But all I receive was a cold shoulder, bad impression, bad attitude from them. What is this?
Currently lethargic and feeling sucky. There is a phobia in me right now. I don't know how to face them. When I face them, aall I receive is scolding and nagging that spoils my day. Tell me, save me people! I am so vex!
Labels: Life sucks now
Friday, February 18, 2011 5:08 PM
Time flies. End of my MC. I went to take out stitches for my wisdom tooth. Dentist gave me 1 more day MC for today. Am so thankful and grateful. Really.Going to take out all the cash in all HONG BAOs collected later on. This year, there seems like a rise in total amount received. Seems like the economy is getting better. Year 2010 sees a 14.5% growth. A double digit growth in so many years. Haha.In addition, I have got to receive more from my mum's relative as they got married in 2010. Her friends also gave it to me. With Hong Baos collected and the increase in money in 30% of the Hong Baos relative to last year, I have got to receive more money this year! Haha.I would wanna save all these amount and serves as a back up to fight for the upcoming inflation, most likely creeping inflation. Inflation is the greatest concern this year and all of us are definitely gonna hit by it. The first few months this year will have the most impactful month. Couldn't upload the Hong Baos pictures but its ok. Next time then.This few days of resting is good for me as it recharges my energy, for at least a little. Tmr will be my duty day! Most likely feeling unpleasant at the start but should be fine after a while. Haha!Oh, my lovely ex-classmate Marcus enlisted yesterday. Have given me my support and all. Hope he is OK. Haha.Shall update more next week. Next week will be quite hard up on me as I am doing duty on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Sunday! Haha. Tuesday, Thurs and Saturday will be free. I need a life! Anyone? Movie or Kbox etc?Alright, take care! =)Labels: Back to NS
Monday, February 14, 2011 8:24 PM
Awww. So nice. I am so glad that I did that since June 2007. I am happy to see my changes. I enjoy myself viewing the past entries written since June 2007. Was browsing my past entries. I really cannot remember some of those incidents that had or has happened. Some issues strucks me. It reminds me that at that instance, a particular thing happened for a reason. I couldn't figure out what was the reason but eventually did as I continue to read on. Some post makes me smile, some post makse me wonder, some post makes me tear while some post are just written for the sake of it. All those ups and down these years made me grow. It surfaces out the bad and ugly side of me and also the good and pleasant side of me. This blog, as far as I am concern, is my precious.If I have the time, I promise, I have keep it updated. Some things can be left in mind as memories. But its the little little things that blog reminds me in detail as to who I actually am. Thanks for sharing who I am in these past years.My English was not that good in 2007. I see myself improving over the years. Though not significant, I am contented. I like to keep my sentenses simple as its easy to convey to others, unless I am writing an essay.Hope to improve me in time to come.Blog helps me to pour out my unhappiness. It is my companion so far. He is my friend when my actual friend is out of reach. One more thing, I uploading most of my pictures here. My com crashed and luckily some of these photos are saved here. Hence I can retrieve it back again! Thanks! Too much to comment. To summarise, I am so contented with this blog and also I am gald to have it then. I will maintain it as far as I am concerned. Alright, shall end here. Wanna watch the 9pm drama later on, looks good. As far for now..Labels: Thanks Blog
5:59 PM
The annual Valentine's Day is here once again. How are you going to spend your time with your love ones? Is this a special day to you or is it just another ordinary day?Most of the couples will meet up on this very special day to spend the precious time with their precious one. Seeing them hugging, kissing, holding on to roses, holding hands etc are a common sight in Town. I have longed to be part of them since 18(maybe). Haha. However, fate did not allow me to do so till now. And when will it be?Being single, I will spend the day with my family and friends. They have always been my Valentines. They are my pillars of support in my life. Without them, I would not be the cuurent Stanley Ho.Being in a relationship is not as easy as it is. However, it is also not as intricate as one may think. As for myself, I will want trust and good communication between the 2, and that can at least sustain for a while, maybe. Flowers, cupcakes, all these are not essential if the relationship is strong. Everyday is Valentine's Day if both parties are happy in the relationship.Today, I spent my time with my family. I remember very clearly that I spent my 2008 Valentines Day with Rups. Then, we were really close that people mistaken us as couples. However, we are not but bestmates. Haha.Last year, Valentines Day falls on Lunar New Year. I got to see all my relatives on that day. Hence, its kinda like forgotten. Haha! Poor florist whose business were affected.Anyway, just crapping some words here to serve as an entry. I am still trying to search for the right one, the one that suits me most. Who knows, this year may be good? Haha.Anyway, to all the couples out there, enjoy your day alright. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!Labels: Valantines Day 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011 8:00 PM
TAI SUI!
I believe some of you may have heard of the them, especially the Chinese or those Taoist. I am not a Taoist but a Buddist. However, I believe in praying TAI SUI for a smooth and good year ahead.There are 60 generals who are highly regarded as TAI SUI. They are selected by the jade-emperor as they were the ones who helped him one way or another. They are tasked to take care of the people on earth every year, each responsible for a year. In each year, there will be 4 animals affected, both directly and indirectly. Those born in the year of the animal that were affected will be advised to pay respect to TAI SUI for a smooth year ahead.As to how thy calculate and why is it 60, there are numerous reasons for it, which is a hassle to be said. All I wanna say is this year, I am affected, indirectly. I chose to believe it but not believing it totally. I have prayed and so far I am still alright. So those who were born in the year of the Rabbit, Rooster, Rat and Horse, it is adviseable to pay a respect to this year's TAI SUI FAN NING General.For full facts if u wanna see, u can check online Haha. Mine are just too summarised and brief. Pictures of all the 60 TAI SUI can be found too, they are cool!Alright, am posting this as I find it interesting reading on the Internet as to how they derive the 60 TAI SUI. Hereby posting for fun. Haha.Am going for Mahjong later. Yesterday's luck was good. Won about 50! Hope to have more later! Take care!Labels: 太岁
6:02 PM
These are some photos taken during Yaya's 21st at Pasir Ris Coasta Sands. Sorry couldn't upload all cos its tedious and slow. More at facebook.Overall I really had lots of fun. Being GEEK is not that difficult afterall. I think I protrayed a real GEEK image with hunch back and the spectacles. Haha. I like my hair too. I like it when my fringe is pushed up like those vintage style. Haha. In another word, 'curry pok' hairstyle. Haha. Think I suit that.Anyway, like most of the things that day. Enjoyed playing BlackJack till midnight. Most importantly, I am glad that Yaya enjoyed herself, cos its 21st!Oh and she like the present that I have given her. Haha. Havainas and Nike bottle. Definitely practical! Alright. Hope to meet my darlings asap. Miss the time when we have our meals together, talking about anything under the sun! Guys, I miss you all!Labels: Yaya's 21st
Saturday, February 12, 2011 11:20 AM
I have not been uploading pictures recently. Cos my com was reformatted due to some unforeseen circumstances. I have tried my best to resolve it though,
Labels: Lunar New Year 2011 Photos
Thursday, February 10, 2011 10:07 PM
Everything was usual and routine. I had 9hours of beauty sleep last night too. I should say I have ample rest at home these 2 days. I am ready for today's surgery.Felt just a little nervous before entering the operating threatre. I was told to change to those blue uniform, which all patients have to wear. When I was there, I saw the dentist and a few other assistants. One of which is the anaesthologist. When I breath those anaesthetic, it took me like 10 seconds and I can really feel that I am going to sleep. The next thing I know was, the surgery was done. Anaesthetic slowly wears off. I can only feel that my mouth is kinda numb. A lot of phleagm is stuck between nostril and mouth. I cannot breathe properly.I tried to tilt in such a way I can breathe normally. My mum came no long after that. Hmm, all I can say going throught GA is ok. At least I don't feel the pain of extracting 4+1/2 teeth out.Came home at about 2plus with the accompliment of mum. Took some porridge and slept till 6plus. Felt slightly better now I guess. I feel that my mouth is emptier. LOL. A little not use to it. I wanna thank SAF for paying this medical bill. I only paid $6 for the bed charge for a $400 plus surgery. Anyway, I got to sleep now. Most likely will be painful tmr and also swollen. This 1 week I will stay at home to rest rest and rest. PS: Finally gotten over this hassle!Labels: No more wisdom
Wednesday, February 9, 2011 4:30 PM
I am still having heading now. I slept quite a bit yesterday but still feeling the impact now. Its painful and torturing. Argh!!Going for wisdom tooth surgery tmr. Feeling a little nervous for tmr. I wonder how would it be! i was told to on GA. There is a certain but small degree of risk which I was my main concern. I need to extract all 4 at one go. What a chore man!This few days have been quite HAPPENING for me. Both good and bad. I am really praying hard for the good days to be coming soon!Rest rest rest. I need more of you.Labels: rest
Tuesday, February 8, 2011 3:41 PM
This few days have been kinda busy for me! Busy travelling from one place to another. Busy playing poker cards and Mahjong. Busy attending friend's 21st. Busy collecting Ang Baos etc. I am totally drained out. Day 2 of Chinese New Year, did 4 prowl without resting on intervals, making me lack of sleep. Together with all the unhealthy goodies, its not surprising that I am under the weather.Took off day yesterday as I need some rest and also y BTT. Managed to pass the test with 49/50. Luckily I had the e-trial before taking the test. After the test, I straight away book my ftt and the PDL. Waited for about 40 minutes for it! Went for lunch and one more visiting to my ex-colleagues. After which, home sweet home.This few days my stomach has been quite bad! Cramp and stop repeatedly. Nothing came out eventually! Maybe its all the bad bacteria for various food sources. And this morning, when I was preparing to go back to camp, I had a BAD one man! Seriously its torturing me! It makes me nausea too. Its something like what I had one day before MP POP day! I couldn't take it and hence I decided to report sick outside.Going through the superiors isn't an easy task. The tone seems to sound like the diarrhoea isn't genuine. At that moment, I just dunno what to say. Cos its that coincident! Luckily I was granted the permission.And here I am resting with 2 days MC. I am going for a wisdom tooth surgery on Thurs. I need ample rest. Am at home after seeing the doctor till now. Lack of sleep is really BAD Bad bad!How i felt? I seem to be the devil of the week that caused so much trouble in camp. I seem to make the other men do extra duty because of my absense. Well, I don't think thats a concern cos I am really not feeling well! This is inevitable I guess.4.5 months here, I enjoyed 2010 year end the most! Now that everything is back to square 1, life is hard on me. I have been pin-pointed numerous times for my appointment etc. I guess, being a floater is the best. Must keep it extremely low! I feel bad for unintentionally creating problems! But I cant do much seriously! All I can say is when I am back, I dun mind 'returning' duties to those who had covered for me. Alright, ending here! Headache now! Sigh!Labels: Start of CNY 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011 9:09 PM
'Gong Hei Fad Choi!' That is how cantonese wishes Happy New Year to each and everyone. There is a sense of closeness saying in dialect than normal Chinese or English. I myself wishes those seniors in Cantonese. Haha. This new year came too rush and too fast. I have not have ample time to clean up and get prepared for the once a year festive season. In addition, my perception on CNY changes quite a bit this year. I do not anticipate that much for it. Its just another year when I get my ANG PAOs for additional spending and also a mini catch up session with my relatives.This year, I mean Day 1, its seems to be lesser people seen in each place. Uncle has not been feeling well. Cousin Sis did not attend my most senior relative. Her place is located at Senkang now instead of the Serangoon. Next up, mum side's relative, the mood isn't there. So few people attended. Some married, some not free. Some came and went off early. Its such a different CNY relative to the previous years. This dampen the mood even further. However, Ang Paos are still as rich as previous years!Anyway, I enjoy it though. Just felt the changes year by year. I was asked "When are you bringing back a girlfriend?'. Oh My God I can't believe it man! Those typical questions Haha!Alright, I couldn't upload photos to my com as the com broke down yesterday by my Bro. Now its a reformatted version and all my datas are gone! GONE! Lovely photos etc are all gone! Luckily blogs and memory cards are present! Haha! Will upload it once its working.Duty tomorrow. I should have enough sleep I guess! Haha! Got to wash up and sleep now Bye!Labels: Huat ah
The annual Valentine's Day is here once again. How are you going to spend your time with your love ones? Is this a special day to you or is it just another ordinary day?
