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Thursday, October 23, 2008 10:44 PM

Hi guys, today is a very very 'teary' day! Today is the day that i have never see my friends tear out that badly.. This post is mainly for my classmates for 8 months in SRJC.. I seriously have a very good time with them this fews months, with many ups and downs that i will always remember..

All these months, i have grown up at least a little and that I have learnt to persevere, be it both emotional and academically.. Remember the times that I cried due to the stress that is in me before and after June holidays? But that experiences made me realise that i need to push-on and go for greater heights in terms of my character building and my attitude towards study.. I think i've managed the time preety much better than before and also realise that studying is very flexible.. Last year during O levels, I can say that i pass with flying colours because i spotted questions and is selective whilr studying..

After studying in a JC for months, I realised that this not the case.. They can come out anything under the sun.. Just like Chemistry, they test on concepts but twist the questions around.. Yeah, i know what i said may be irrelevant to u all but i still wanna say that I will continue to work hard cos next year will be a tough year..

Yeah, I am promoted. But i felt really bad today. Perhaps I have foresee my future self next year, having very little friends as the class will be shrunk into lesser people.. The saddest thing is that those closest to me these 8 months may not be my classmate next year and I will probably MISS them like hell...

"The laughters they produce, the childish but fun experiences they had, the bad experience that happen during May, the quarrels between different parties, the passing of sweets in the LT by Marcus using his pencil case, the heart to heart talk amongst small groups and the events that we take part(SROlympic/Thanks giving) etc had made our ties stronger"

When i see the tears rolling down their face, I just dun know what to say.. I can't 100% what they are feeling then but i know if anyone talks to me, i will shun that person off.. Cos at their lowest point, they might feel we are pitying them.. Yeah so after a while they are better and i felt more comfortable to talk to them..

All along the class has some gossips here and there and quarrellings BUT i just can't accept the fact that we are seperating.. But i really hope u all can do well for next year and work extra hard for it ok? Always take the 4 of them to gauge and tell urself that if u work hard, u can do as well as they have did this year... Jia you ok! We are still friends..

Right now I wanna give some words to each and everyone in 1S30.. Dun worry the words are mainly positive! =)

Cuthbert- This guy from what i know is very determined and i can say Damn smart.. Perhaps last year he was playing that made him do it once more this year.. But his points is really good this time round! But then i seldom talk to him cos perhaps we have little common topics due to different backgrounds but casual talks should be fine..

Alan- Quite funny when someone bullies him.. Haha.. I think he is a nice guy if u know him and same i dun really have common topics with him.. Although he is also a 1990 baby but then i think he looks like a 'KorKor' to me.. He knows so much more than me.. Ya.. But 1 think i respect him is he is very 'kanchiong', he takes his work very seriously from the past experience(Econs essay)!

Joycelyn- I have a nickname for her= Chiongster.. She does her work seriously and punctually.. She always rush her works with little time spend but on the other hand is accurate and correct.. When something is given on Monday and due on Fri, she will finish it on MON cos she anticipated that there will be more to come and can have more time for that and can have time for revision.. Such a postive attitude towards study is something i have been emulating.. I hope i can adopt this.. Also, she is nice as in can joke around and talk during Band practices and Chem lectures.. Oh and her relationship prob, nice to hear from u.. =)

Next, Esther and SiHui-Esther, this quiet girl in my class is always so diligent that she scored 64 or 65 points for Promo.. Wow I seriously thinks that she is really good student! Study well and do well for exam and has good time management i think.. A very funny person sometimes when we talk about something.. Oh ya not to forget, she is my die-hard blog reader( think so and hhope so)! Haha.. Esther gogogo!

As for SiHui, i dun really talk to u much in sch but i do remember talking to u sometimes.. I can say each time talking to u is a stressful thing cos ur England is WOW! Yeah and u r a very 'technology' person as far as I am concern, and is also a GOOD gamer! Jia You!

Amanda-Always see her cry in class as she cannot take the stress that is on her.. A very active girl that feels hungry all the time.. Haha.. Eats a lot but is as skinny as a bamboo.. Haha.. Glad to know her cos she is quite a fun person to hang out with.. Dun worry about the result k, try all ur best for the re-exam! =)

Marcus- Hey dude, wanna say that initially I dun always hang out with u cos I feel that u r like slacking and all and is not serious in ur work.. But i will respect ppl who change for the better and indeed u did it.. U improve tremendously do u know? I can feel and i see the drastic change in u in ur studies and is a postive one! Good for u.. As for today's result, its not a good news but i believe u can make it next it with flying colours.. Oh, thanks for being a nice guy and inviting us to ur house for PW and treating us! Thanks a lot Marcus! I really thank god to have u as a friend! I support u!

Yoke Hung- Hmm, i can say u r the closest person i know in 1S30.. Cos of Gp and Econs tuition.. U r one of the most gentleman guy i ever met in my life, helping me will all the printing for PW! I seriously dunno how much i owe it to u.. And those coins that i lent from u, oh gosh.. After tuition we will have lunch or dinner together and lending me use his laptop etc.. Hmm i guess what i wanted to say to u has already beeen said, so remember ok? I really hope u r ok and must be positive ok, i will remember ur aim, prove it to me! I support u

HuiYing- Hmm the first day i saw her i thought she is an Ah Lian whom i will hate her in future.. But she prove me wrong.. She is not what i think in my mind and is actually quite nice.. I can see she treat her friends nicely.. Hmm, regarding today's 'Bye', i m seriously trying to tease u, i can feel that u truly wanna join us but can't due to ur ----, but dun worry i still remember u.. Oh ya and thanks for the concern back then during June when i feel sucky! I appreciate that!

Kenneth- Waa this F***ker ah, super TEMPERAMENTAL.. A little bit he will start to say F word and gets frustrated very easily! I HATE it when he gets agitated by something that he doesn't like, seriously its irritating.. He is very very sensitive and always like to disturb me.. And i was malign by him last week, what the-! However he is a nice guy in other areas such as he is very generous.. He is not calculative in terms of things he lend to u.. He gave me a Sony Ercisson earpiece which cost $30+.. After band or school, i will never fail to call him to take the same bus home together.. That made us closer.. Oh ya, if u need help in Chem, i will try to help k.. U must study hard ok?

Next. Yongxin, hmm i dunno what to say about u.. Perhaps a very cheeryful and gigglish girl but is an EMO girl too.. Haha.. Very nice to talk to when u r down and very funny girl.. The best is when we gossip about something fishy.. Wahaha.. Ya but she is a little negative sometimes.. So good and bad, i really dunno.. But is a nice girl to hang out with..

Soo Yue- Hey girl i m seriously sorry if this is too short for u but just wanna say i seldom have a long talk with u and that we only talk about casual stuffs right?.. We are like just normal classmate who talks like normal friends but i can say i like your laughther! Very contagious!.. Oh but i tell u she is DAMN smart! Seriously! PeiFu Peifu!

Jack Plae- This POLY KING keeps complaining about his poor result and always have this mindset of going Poly after his Promos.. I seriously dunno what he is thinking right now BUT i can say he is damn funny! Regarding Marcus's Sis issue, i can laugh with Cheryl like there's no tmr.. LOL! Nice person to talk with!

Kenny-Hey, dun sulk dude.. I know its hard to accept but i can say u r the best to endure all these in the class.. Good for u.. Thanks for being a nice person to me as in joke around during Chem lectures and Chinese tutorials and taking train will continue next year right? U must study harder as compared to this year when u do it once more next year.. Dun feel discriminated, push on ok! U r a funny, cute and funny guy.. Remember what i say before that when u - i confirm cry.. LOL! I will miss ur laughters and jokes.. But I will support u de!

Cheryl- My PW group leader for 8 months.. U r a leader that help our group lots of things.. I think u r the best but perhaps not so serious sometimes in ur work and a little lazy.. I think(oops)... But without u i think my life is so damn boring cos i can't hear someone expressing her bitchiness to me so that i can laugh and imitate and FIGHT with u..(Remember A1-2 that day?) Yeah, I always think that u r great personality in u and u just have a very confidence self in whatever ways, be it both ur language and character.. Oh today I am so sorry that i turn u down for that Chalet but cos i dun really feel like going cos i feel bad for those who can't make it.. Maybe i a little overboard but so sorry for that.. Anyway, u are so called my 1 female English-speaking friend that can click so well with me.. Haha.. All the way man!

Mojojolene-Haha.. Hey girl, y are u thinking that i will have that thinking.. I seriously didn't try to be sacarstic that day.. Cos i know u needed to go due to ur external stuff.. I know and I am seriously not angry at all.. I do not have the right to be angry with u cos u have finish ur stuffs.. U can be angry with me instead cos i am like doing Nth for the WR! Yeah, i am glad to know u as a friend and thanks for sharing all the stufffs during PW meeting and all e best for your POLY education.. PW group member rock on!

Thats all.. Hmm thats is how i feel towards these ppl in y class.. Just wanna let them noe no matter where they go I will remember them and how FUN we can be as a class during Marcus's Bday etc! I just wanna say no matter where u r the memories will be in my mind all the way till I pass away! I am pleased to know u guys and all e best! (Can't bare to leave u all)

STAN!

Labels: I want all of u

Thursday, October 16, 2008 9:58 PM

Hi folks, here to blog again.. Shall go directly to the things that i post today.. Short and sweet.. Haha.. Pictures is the dominant one..

Oh ya before i continue, let me say something about my PROMO exam first.. Generally still ok and is within my target range.. Seems like promoting to JC2, or should I say advancing to JC2 should not be a problem.. However, i think i may suffer like a F tard in JC2 as subjects like GP and GEOG is a KILLER to me and seriously i am weak at it.. Sigh.. Without further a do, my results are: H1 General Paper-U(Terrible U), H1 Chinese- C, H1 Mathematics-B, H2-Chemistry-D(UTTERLY DISAPPOINTING =(], H2 Economics-B(Switch with Chem), H2 Geography-U(Improvement made-Pass physical Geog but fail human geog)..

Results are not finalised yet... Still have to consider Mid Year exam and CA grades with both consist of 40% of the overall.. May pull up or pull down the grade.. Super disappointed in CHEM! ="( Oh ya, to 1S30 who thinks that they dun do well, let me say 1 thing, its not the end.. I believe u all have plans ahead.. Go ahead and all the best for ur future, its nice having u all as a class.. Dun be sad, most importantly is that u have fought a good fight! =) Cheers!

Ok, Shall begin this post.. Pictures!

Donuts from DONUT FACTORY! Same as the last post.. But just wana post it up haha..A dead 'moth' in my room.. My digital camera(Micro)! Ok la not that bad.. Haha.. 家好月圆庆中秋! Haha.. I celebrate Lantern Festival too.. EVery year without fail i will light up the lanterns to beautify our place and enhance the ambience.. Haha..

On 2-10-08, went AEROPONICS farm with Marcus's PW group members as they will have to have at least 9 members to form a group to go into the farm The purpose is to let Kenny get info regarding this farm and then use it for their project..Poor Cheryl's group have to go and waste time! Sigh.. But then i enjoy the whole thing and no regrets! Lets begin!

First, watch a video.. BORING! Everything is known as i learn HTF in Geog elective.. See, MR STANLEY with his camera and MR STANLEY our person in charge for the day! LOL! STAN THE MAN!

Not sure what cultivation.. I think is corn or something else.. I love these pictures.. The top left-hand side of the 2nd picture is my hair and not something else.. Haha.. and Pic 5 is peanuts!

Pic1- Yeah the ppl who went.. My classmates... Pic 2- Butterhead Lettuce.. Pic 3- Stan with another breed of Butterhead lettuce.. I love vege! =) Pic 4- I dunno what type of vege.. Pic 5- Marcus's sister, Yue Yue aka IN LAWS with..... who tagged along with us is an intelligent kid eating crackers away!

Hey look, what is Marcus and CHeryl doing? CHeryl with Snakegourd, Marcus is doing errrhemm! Ok shall not elaborate!

After the walk, lets have some VEGE and VEGE JUICE! It's damn nice.. Vege with thousand Island and the vege juice! Wow, super mytype of food.. Healthy! U know what, i go straight to the toilet and BOMB once i reach home! Clear toxins! Haha! VEGEVEGE!

At 7pm, it was already quite dark.. There was no vehicle at sight and we decided to walk all the way back to Kranji Mrt station.. After walking for 3mins, there comes a lorry which stopped by and the friendly driver asked where are we heading to.. Despite the different direction that both of us are going, he gives us a lift to Kranji Mrt station.. We met a lucky star on that day as the journey back to station is very long! CamWhored in the lorry and i love the kind of rapid moving wind and sitting together with my friends.. Nice nice!

Ok, basically i shall stop here.. BUT, i will still have to write something before i go..

These words are for Kat!

Kat, if u r viewing this, i hope u dun mind.. Pardon me for the straight forwardness as some words may hurt.. But bare in mind i am speaking something from the bottom of my heart.. Ok, as for the things u have wrote in ur blog, i have always been viewing it closely and know every single move that u've made.. Although I wasn't close to u guys this period due to tight schedules, i was observant enough to see what is going on within every single one of u.

From the day when I talk to u at ur working place in Vivo, i have already change my perception towards u. Really! Of all no reason u told me all things that i know U WILL NEVER DO IT! U seem to change to another person to me and the new U made me feel that u r not my type of friend regrettably! Fine, i kept it in my heart.

The next thing i knew was regarding Kenny.. I have conveyed to him about the things that i missed out! And that the relationship matter is seriously an unfair judgement i think.. U know y? Let me tell u, its his choice whether to continue or not, and that he is your friend, u should even RESPECT his decision and not add salt to the wound.. Dun u think it is so not the right thing to do.. Plus, u said E is childish. But then have u thought of stopping all quarels since u mentioned that E is childish. Can I say that u r part of it as well cos u talk to E? Why would u wanna communicate with a person whom u think is childish unless u r one. Till then , u leave a bad impression to the person! Gone case. I mean really, I never think of true friends winning over relationship. I noe it does and is quite true but then I seriously dun think u should do this. U seem to be CONTROLLING over Kenny that i seriously cannot tolerate. Everyone got their rights to chose to lead their own life. Same for u who always goes ur own way. So why can't Kenny choose to take the risk?

U said WE(4 of us) are not close to u.. Since this year, i have been hearing lots of comments from u saying things about us(Nv go out with u, very sad, cant compared to Rups).. Around June to July, have i not given u advises? I told u to break him off and u didn't.. So which means can i make a big fuss out of everything like u do right now cos at that time u always clinch to your ex? As for the part why sometimes we 'neglect' u, all i can say is it is a CYCLE and u can jolly well think of it, it is obvious..(What goes around comes around)

I seriously dunno whether the 4 is inclusive or exclusive of me.. However, it doesn't matter.. What i can say is it's confirm the usual 4 other than u.. '4 closest to me'.. Kat, I have never say such harsh words on u before. Which means u can infer that this time round i m really serious about this.. From the sms that day i told u i need to talk to u. I am the 3rd one who write things out in blog out of the 4 theoretical ones mentioned by u. U wanna flare or whatever, its up to u.. The reason for this to appear is I still care about my friends.. I just can't stand it anymore and burst! I dunno whether it will affect friendship but I am here to surface out how i feel..

Right now, i know its very tough for u.I shouldn't have done this but so is Kenny who is being maligned by ur words. I can't possibly see this best friend of mine standing right there suffering too..

But whatever it is, as for ur Dad's case, I really hope he is alright. I hope he will go through it smoothly.. I hope to hear good news from u..

Till then i will see u again!

Labels: Sadly drifted apart

Saturday, October 11, 2008 1:27 PM

Hey peeps, here to post another entry.. This week is a very stress week, with lots of things to do and that irritating issue kept pestering me.. How? I seriously hate it and its like so ridiculous.. Beat around the bush and in the end hurt itself.. What is the point? Complain and complain, but actually who is the one to be blame should be the one who started all this nonsense.. One fine day, i will expose everything here.. Or settle it asap..

Some days ago, F1 racing was held in Singapore for the first time... It was a success and I enjoy it just by viewing it on the TV.. I could even hear the sound of the engines going"Booomm Boom".. Its super loud.. Some pictures to show...

Yeah, the lines in the pictures indicated that i took from the TV.. Haha.. But not bad right? Better than the past where the lines are so obvious that the picture looks awful.. Haha.. F1 is really nice i like it.. =) Hope next year i can go to that place to view it..

People, this is NICOLE in the 9pm show called .....(forgot the title).. Haha.. She is really adorable! VERY VERY adorable.. Felt like hugging her! Look at her big eyes and they way she smile.. WAAA heaven!

Last tuesday(30/9/08), went aunt house to have lunch.. I miss my uncle's BEST COOK FOOD! Let's see!

A sumptuous lunch on that day... Similar food as compared to June when i went to my aunt house.. Yum Yum! Haven't been having such nice meal for months... =)

Afterwhich, went to meet Jas and ZhuangWei in the afternoon to slack.. AFter ZW's lunch, went THE CATHAY Starbucks.. BUT BUT BUT, no place! =( So we went BEN&JERRY'S for ice-cream.. My 1st time going B&J! Had a cone that cost $4.90! But I love it a lot! Can't remember what flavour! (Something like cookies and cream)

7.30pm, went PASTA MANIA Plaza Sing for dinner.. Ate Chicken Bolognese with Combo A(Garlic bread,drink and soup)!

After that, Caramel Frap! I tell u that day i spend lots of money! Waaaa, People tell me to stop spending money!

Wednesday(1-10-08), had our PW meeting! Met a while and went off.. Then me and Yokehung went to do PW at Vivo... Met a very irrationale person... SHall not mention if my bloodpresure will shoot up! Around 4-5pm, met Walla and Jas.. Then sat at SKy garden for hours.. Saw this bunch of ppl!

About 20 odds students sitting together and have some games.. They pllayed 'Chop Chilli Chopchopchop'.. How i wish i was inside there.. Haha.. But its nice to see this group with lots of laughters.. Haha...!The following day, went CHeryl's house to do PW.. Ordered pizza for lunch! Haha.. Afterwhich, the whole day was spent in the AEROPONICS FARM.. Thanks to Marcus's group.. Haha.. Nah, not angry with them at all.. At least i enjoyed the trip.. Haha...(Pictures to be uploaded soon)

Lastly, Friday went to Marcus's house for PW! AT night, we had pizza AGAIN! But i really prefer CANADIAN pizza! Haha...(I_ L_WS) WAAA HAHAHAHAHAH!!

Ok, i shall end here.. Sigh.. I seriously dunno what to say.. What i think is that is seriously overboard.. How can a person be so BAD to the other person.. I can't believe it u can say this type of words to hurt others.. Can u think for others or not.. People already try to help u and u scold that person back again, how can u.. And also, a lot of things is not supposed to bother, the person involve only has the right... 王帝不急太监急？Waa, what a funny joke it can be.. The King has the right.. Oh ya, lastly, dun ever complain so much la, the cycle is always there if the complain is heard.. Trust me.. Sigh, have beenunder the weather since yesterday.. Too sick to bother about this la.. It's incorrigible.. Sigh..

Labels: Cannot make it