Sunday, August 24, 2008 9:53 PM
Hey people.. Back once again.. I am really down right now.. Dun ask me why, cos u will know.. It's not about studies, nor is it about something serious.. It's quite random and sudden for me to blog this.. But i just couldn't help it.. I miss them.. I wanna see them back into this world again.. I wanna hear them talk to me about their past life.. I wan lots of values that is useful from them.. I want to see them.. Yes, I wish to see my late grandparents again..
Someone might ask, WHY SUDDEN THINK OF THEM AGAIN? I wanna say that its oso quite shocking for me to think of them at this time.. BUT the reason is ------------------------------
Today, 24/8, as usual went for tuition.. After tuition met up with Kenny aka Buddy to study.. He left 2 more months exactly before his O level maths paper commence.. So from now onwards every Sunday i will try my best to teach him all I can to help him PASS his MATHS! Did some questions on Arithmetics.. Its too simple till i have no idea why the question ask is set this way.. FINE.. Do do do.. SUDDENLY, Kenny's grandma called and his expression, his actions and his words ALL CHANGED! I felt something unusual happen in his family... After hanging up, Oh gosh, i saw tear surrounding his pair of big attractives eyes.. Something is wrong..
He is strong, he tried to stay calm and everthing.. But i insist of stopping work and go somewhere else... Strolled to Marina Square as he wanted Caramel Frap.. While walking, he told me lots of his stuffs regarding his grandpa.. YES! Something happened to his grandpa.. His grandpa is going to leave him very soon! After hearing this, i was really really shocked and lost of words..
However, I have tried my very best to talk to him.. I can feel how much love he has for his grandpa.. Just like Rups Darling.. I felt for him then, giving him my best support! Went to MAC instead due to overcrowding and oso got ------- area.. Yeah.. Once everything settled, i decided to call Rups darling to tell her everything.. This reminds her of her late grandpa who passed away 2 weeks ago.. SHe cried.. Passed on to Kenny to talk to her... I tell u, I have never see my buddy CRY SO TERRIBLY and SO SEVERLY in my life before.. I am like I seriously dunno what to tell him and i think he need time.. I could only try to soothe him down with my powerless but sincere words to him.. From then on, my mind was really unstable.. It reminds me of my late grandparents too... My eyes went watery after a while...
Went off at 7plus... Tried means and ways to cheer him up and prepare him to face his grandpa later on.. Luckily 1 thing for sure works.. Which is " oh, see SEMPAI( meaning Leader in Japanese).." Yes, finally he laughed...(Only my cliques know) lol..
Sent him to MRT station and off he goes..
To Kenny: Hey dude, if u happen to see this, this is for u.. I seriously dunno when will he be leaving u.. AFter hearing the condition, i can feel its near.. Treasure this few moments with him as u dunno when is it.. I know its hard and u cant bear to leave him, but life is like that.. Born-> Live->Die.. Its a process... And he is old already.. U should understand... Just wish u can take it and calm down ya? Ur grandpa wants to see u happily growing up and be a good person ya? And he will remember u as a good grandson of his, buying u sweets from young and all.. Yes, CRY OUT LOUD if u cannot take it, cos its really unhealthy to keep it inside.. Vent it out if u r uncomfortable.. But on the other hand TRY your best to stay strong.. KENNY is a strong person, right? CHeer up ok? Anything my phone is ON.. "5am i still answer ur call ok".. Yeah, so.. JIA YOU JIA YOU! I will pray hard for him dude!
Sigh, why is my both best of the best buddy and bestmates' grandparents are undergoing this situation... My bestmate's grandfather just passed away and i just dun wan my buddy to experience it... He is worse as this is really to sudden for him to take..
Is 2008 really a bad year for the horse babies? My 2 lovely friends is undergoing something which i have experieced 7 years ago and its also on August... Why? WHy WHy? Why must everything come in like that?
Having said that, on my way on bus, i nearly cried.. Thinking of my grandparents... I lost my grandfather at 1 years old(mum side), 5 years old grandfather(dad side), and 2 grandmother in year 2001! I cried like SIAO that year.. I miss them... Thinking of them, i just can't control...
These are some photos to show.. Ya.. I love u all grandparents.. I love u all...
Mum's mum, dad's mum and Dad'd dad... (I love u all grandparents)
Grandma's birthday! When i was 9 years old...
8 or 9 years old.. My birthday... Ah Ma I LOVE U.. U will always be in my heart no matter what...
Its hard to switch back to normal mode, but life has to carry on... Though all 4 of my grandparents left me, they will be kept quietly in a very very nice room inside my heart and never will they Vanish!
Labels: My deceased granparents
